This is the second year I've dreaded seeing September 2 come around. I've prayed on September 1 both years before bed that I could wake up to September 3 instead and totally skip over the 2nd. You see sweet girl, most Momma's look forward to her children's birthdays, being able to remember that day her sweet baby was placed in her arms. To be able to treat them special on their special day. To be able to tell them how much she loves them, loves having them in her life and how her life would not be complete without them. Your Momma struggles still knowing that when September 2 comes around, I can't do that with you in person. I feel this way about you baby girl, but I feel so empty knowing you will never be in my arms, that I will never be able to see your little face in person. I remember the day your little face come onto my computer, but I also remember that day we got the call and God said He had better plans for you. I still think about you constantly. I pray for you constantly. I think about what you could be doing during the day. I also think about what it would have been like to have you here running around with your brothers and sister, and being in my arms whenever I wanted. I still long for that day even though I know it won't ever happen. I have to stop myself when someone asks me how many kids I have. In my heart I want to say two girls. Even though it was never legal, you are still my little girl. I pray with all my heart sweet girl that someone made you feel special today. I pray with all my heart that someone picked you up, hugged you, loved on you, and told you how incredibly blessed this world is because God brought you into it. I pray with all my heart that God will allow you to feel even an ounce of the love I have for you.Happy 4th birthday my sweet
Jireh Grace! Your Momma on this side of the world loves you more than you could and will ever know!
